wretch like me
i have a fabulous philosopher in my life, heidi, who i have quoted on here before. this weekend, she was talking about reconciling, primarily with three entities: 1) other people, 2) god, and 3) herself.

the easiest one, is other people. second easiest is god. however, the word "easy" is not allowed anywhere near a sentence with the words "reconciling with oneself." unless you're writing a sentence like i just did.

one thing she said that still haunts me went something like this, "self-loathing is when you only hear the words 'wretch like me' in the song 'amazing grace'."

we know that the song continues. grace IS amazing. but her sentiment is sorrowful and glorious at once. pained and promising. depressing and exhilarating. wretched and graceful. to struggle with reconciliation and grace is understandable and beautiful. it braids the gift of grace with so much more energy and power in our humanness, in our wretchedness.

how sweet the sound...