the anti-work
given my obsessive attraction to message boards (lately it's been me going bridal at www.theknot.com), you'd think i didn't need something else to veer me away from my work. but here i am, developing a weblog that i can easily update... while at work!!!

i don't have an innate disrespect for my employer, in fact, i love my job, i love my boss, i'm pretty much indifferent towards the actual company. i don't know what it is. idleness? attention deficit? obsession with the internet? perhaps. i like all three.

and on the days when i hustle and get actual words written (i'm talking about work here), i feel like i should "reward" myself with a quick perusal online. so what could be considered lack of motivation actually motivates me to get stuff done.

i'm wondering how public to make this blog. i can't predict whether i'll want to use this site as a place to vent about my loved ones or not. probably not. i'm sure i'll send erik here to take a look, because there's nothing i will ever think that i wouldn't want to share with him. what do i enjoy about other peoples' weblogs? well, they're windows to their brains. i love that. but, then again, these are strangers' blogs i'm reading, so they're really just windows to strange brains. it'd be different if i knew the person. it'd be like sneaking between the matresses and reading their diary.
well, i'll use discretion when i write and spread the word about jde blog.
is wisdom a consequence of discretion? some would say (usually introverts). obviously (well, not obviously... you might not know me), i'm not a pure introvert. i'm not a pure extrovert, either. i wonder if there's a term for us sometimes-introverts-and-sometimes-extroverts... but anyway, i'm leaning towards discretion really not being useful at all. i don't think holding anything back makes me any better of a person, unless i'm being discrete (discreet?) with insults... but i also don't think rambling on about this, that, and the other will make me smarter.
yeah, yeah, i know wisdom and smartness and intelligence and knowledge are all different....

okay, away from the black hole of wisdom and discretion... back to the grey.